Boston Marathon

For almost a week now, I have tried to handle my emotions and figure out how I wanted to explain what I experienced.  My friends are awesome writers and you can read their experiences here:  Andy's Experience and Rachel's Experience.  Rachel even wrote this song that is very touching and beautiful, "Be Strong."

I got up at 5ish on Monday morning to wish Lindy good luck on her run and to finalize when we were going to see her to cheer her on.  I was so excited and a little teary-eyed because I know how big this race is and I was so proud.  I climbed back on the couch and fell back asleep. 

I woke up later to get ready and also make Lindy's signs.  Rachel, her roommate Chelsee, her friend Jacob, Andy and myself made the trek to the halfway point to cheer Lindy on!  On the drive over I could see a section of road above the freeway where the runners crossed - it was so beautiful I teared up a little bit. 

I was shocked to see how the entire town shut down and cheered as the runners went by - kids, families, friends, stores completely shut down and cheered.  Some runners had their names on their shirts, legs or arms and I cheered for everyone that I could by name!  I hoped that if someone saw Lindy's name on her leg that they would cheer her on for me and all of her friends both in Boston and back at home.  Sadly, even though we received the text saying Lindy had passed the halfway mark, we missed her in the sea of runners.  I was so sad that I wasn't able to personally cheer her on at that point and told myself that I wasn't going to miss her passing the finish line.

Rachel expertly and very quickly drove back to her apartment where we jumped on the T and headed to the finish line.  Once we got off at our stop it pretty much felt like we were cattle.  I quickly lost sight of everyone and joked with the guy in front of me about how "close" we were getting.  I apologized for constantly being pushed into him and he joked about how we were now practically family.  It was funny and helped lighten my panic as I kept thinking in my mind that if anything were to happen I was scared of being trampled.  Little did I know that those fears would become real. 

We got the text message that Lindy passed the finish line, so again we missed her as we were swimming against people trying to make our way down.  We decided to cut down this little alley shortly before the finish line to see if we could meet Lindy at the family meet up area.  I was hoping to go back there as I wanted to see the runners cross over and give a cheer for them since I missed Lindy's big finale! 

We met up with Lindy, she found us actually when we held up her signs to see if that would help her find us, which worked!  :) 

The look on Geno's face when he saw Lindy was priceless!  He was so proud and you could tell!  It made me cry.  And it was around that moment that I remember hearing the first bomb go off.  Honestly, I immediately thought it was a bomb but then knowing that I always jump to the worst in a situation, my next thought was that the scaffolding above the finish line fell which really wasn't any better.  A few seconds later I heard the second bomb and knew that something was seriously wrong.  People were trying to figure it out in our group - construction?  low flying plane?  I entertained those thoughts because I wanted to believe it was that, but knew something was terribly wrong and it was all I could do to stand there and listen.  I wanted to run, and I am not a runner, but I wanted to get out of that area as soon as possible.  We started slowly walking further away from the area as sirens, police, people started yelling and then it was confirmed that there was an explosion at the finish line. 

I went into shock then... 

I heard people around me talking and telling me what to do, but I don't remember if I responded.  All I thought of is how we needed to leave the area and get those I loved away from the danger.  Because I didn't know if this was going to stop or more bombs were going to go off...  and I couldn't let anyone hurt my friends or family because if I wasn't killed in a blast that killed anyone of our group, I wouldn't be okay.

Rachel's roommate Chelsee was a godsend, she knew the transportation system well and got us out of the area as quickly as she could.  I couldn't get calls to go out but was getting text messages here and there so I sent Erin a text to call mom and tell her we were all okay,  We did end up walking the last mile and I only remember crying a couple of times.  Not wanting my friends to see that I was in shock, because I didn't want them to worry about me or think of me as weak I kept quiet.  I was grateful that we made a new friend, Andrew, who had just moved to Boston and needed help navigating the town as he and Lindy had very similar interests and they talked nonstop.  I was glad because I am pretty sure I would have lost it if she started trying to talk with me.

We finally made it to Rachel's and Andy started pulling up the news reports to see what happened.  It was confirmed that there were two bombs and a possible third at the library.  I didn't know where that was in relation to the house, but to me it felt like it was next door.  I was finally able to get a call to my mom and spent the next few minutes not even being able to breathe because I was crying to hard.  I was scared, people had died, at that point they didn't know who did this and if there were more bombs. 

Lindy, Andy and I flew home the next day - the airport was full of runners, supporters trying to make their way home and also security.  We boarded our flight and while we were waiting to taxi to the runway, there were sirens and firetrucks going by.  The pilot got on and started to explain the situation and I felt myself going into shock again.  There was an unexplained fire on an airplane and all I could think about was that the terrorist got past airport security and no place was safe. 

I came back to DC and found that I couldn't sleep - sirens, garbage trucks, really anything would set off a wave of panic attacks and I didn't feel safe.  I went to Erin's house and they welcomed me and it is easy to relax with kids there to occupy your mind.  I also watched with them as we found out who set off the bombs and watched as the final individual was in custody. 

That night I cried again when everyone had gone to bed, I cried in gratitude for how quickly these two were caught.  I cried because he is so young and I want to know why they would do that.  I cried because people are right it was scary, but Boston and our nation are strong.  We rallied and helped in every way we could...  and I cried because I am so grateful to be a part of a nation like this. 

I found out that I will heal, it will take time, but I will be able to hear sirens again and not feel my pulse race, break out in a sweat and continue to breathe.  Because I, like Boston, choose to be strong.  

All for a couch!!!

It was a cold and rainy Friday, when I decided to go and pick up a couch that was to be given to me. It was located in Arlington, which I thought was only twenty minutes away... Mistake # 1.

I rented a U-haul and a friend joined me in my trip to pick up the couch. With my trusty GPS in hand, we proceeded to make our way to Arlington. Traffic was heavy as it was rush hour, so we took what I thought were the back roads. My friend was enjoying the trip (he wasn't driving, which I don't blame him) and telling me how he had been to some of the restaurants we were driving past.

I began to take notice of a few of the buildings and had a funny feeling that they looked familiar. It wasn't until I recognized the Red Cross building on my right that I realized we were about a block away from the White House. I thought that my GPS must be messed up or something because there I was in a 10' U-haul truck in downtown DC... Mistake # 2!

It was just a few moments later that I heard police sirens, which isn't unusual, and started pulling to the side to make room. That is when I noticed that they followed me to the side. I started to get a little worried, I had no idea what I had done! I was scared to death that they were going to throw me out of the car and handcuff me!

I rolled down the window and watched as the two officers walked up both sides of the truck, I swear I was sweating bullets! The officer asked if I knew why they pulled me over, to which I responded a quick NO! The officer stated that it was illegal to drive a truck on 17th street, my stomach dropped!!! I told him I was so sorry I had no idea, he asked where I was coming from and where we were headed. I was so nervous I told him my old house in Derwood then corrected myself and stated Silver Spring, probably not the best thing to do. The officer then asked what was in back of the truck. I explained that I was going to pick up a couch and didn't have anything back there except the dolly. He asked if I would show him, so I climbed out of the truck and went to open the back.

On the way, the officer explained that had I been block or two over that ballists would have been raised and the truck permantently taken out, these laws where made after 9/11. Which is when I realized this Friday was indeed the 8th Anniversary of the attacks. I said a quick prayer of gratitude that my stupidity hadn't landed me in bigger trouble! I asked him how I got off 17th and he explained that I already turned off the road. I was so grateful to come around back and see my friend there to help me lift the door, my hands were shaking terribly! We showed both of the officers the truck and then the officer asked for my license. I went up front and turned it over to his waiting hands.

Sitting in the truck waiting was awful! I was picturing a $1,000 fine and time in jail... Finally, I saw both of them in the mirror coming up both sides again... This is it, AH!!

The officer stated that there was a $75 fine and two points would be removed from my license. In my mind after thinking of $1,000 fine, a $75 fine wasn't too bad. The officer stated that he wouldn't give me a ticket, but I received warning to watch for signs of where trucks couldn't go. I thanked him and said another prayer of gratitude for the officer's kindess!

We were off again to get this couch, Adam was on alert for trucks signs! We started heading towards the Pentagon and Adam mentioned that if pulled over here not to mention we had already been pulled over a few blocks away! Ha ha!

Luckily, we found the house and were able to pick up the couch. On the way home, the GPS again took us on back roads and I ended up turning it off... Mistake #3! Signs here on the East Coast are CONFUSING!!! I already don't know which way is North/South/East/West! Needless to say, we made it home shoved the couch into the elevator and through my door! So, I now have a couch!! It only took five hours, two starving movers, non-working GPS and one large U-haul truck!