Today I feel like I am living in Hell. I can smell the fire, feel its heat burn my
skin and hair and pulling me downward.
This is what has happened recently that I just don’t feel
prepared or want to deal with…
- Friend in the process of losing her father to cancer and feeling utterly helpless
- Audit at work
- School – seriously my professor is an idiot who thinks we should already know everything he is supposed to teach us and therefore talks about bowel movements, regrets, religion, etc.
- Losing a resident I was close with
- Being with someone who doesn’t want to date me but doing what I consider “dating” things
- Being torn because I want above individual to find an awesome job because he really deserves it, but not wanting him to leave.
I know that I am just going through a rough patch as does everyone else. I also realize that this is minimal compared to people losing loved ones and/or dealing with what society feels is a bigger burden. But
honestly, I just want to shut my door and cry.
It is when I am stressed like this that I am really, really jealous of
my family/friends that are married because they have someone that truly cares
about their well-being and wants to do things to make their life easier. Whether it be bringing over ice-cream to noticing
that life has dealt you a hard hand and they want to hold yours until it gets
better. Or just cuddling with them and having them actually cuddle you back... :(
Okay, I am done. Back to work before I drown further in my own sorrows!!
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